The River

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
It has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance that tide
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls
With the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Lord, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Yea

The River--- by Garth Brooks




I really, really, really like this song! I know it is old, but it is so full of meaning for me! People who say country music is all bout leaving, drinking and boozing hasn't listened to a whole lot of country!

My river, my journey whether it be my Christian walk, weight loss, homeschooling, wife hood or parenthood... I have to CHOOSE to step off the shore and actually get on the boat. Sometimes hubbie and I have this issue where he seems Unplugged from family life. Maybe it is when work is to stressful, maybe it is just his personality, maybe it is his way of coping with stress... whatever it is I just KNOW that I am glad when he plugs back in! What I have come to realize is that I UNPLUG too! I didn't know that. I can always see when he does it. It is very noticeable to me! But the whole plank in your own eye!!!!! I unplug too!

Some days even though because we home school and my kids will literally be with me 24/7 all the time, I find there are days we don't talk. I mean I might give out chores, we might even do school I will automatically say yes or no to their wishes, probably pretend to laugh at a joke and or pretend to be interested when they show me a special cocoon or Lego module they have built.

BUT I AM NOT THERE.... I don't know where I go? But I am not plugged in. I am simply going through the motions. I don't think I realize how often I must do it although I am more aware now!

So all that to say this...

I want to choose each day to NOT stand upon the store... I want to get up on that vessel each and every time. I want to trust that God is going to get me where I need to go that day! No matter the task, no matter how weary, no matter how stressed, no matter what!

I am choosing to sail my vessel. So if I catch myself unplugged or sitting on the shoreline I will have to will myself to get on board!

Of course with God as my captain... how could I steer wrong???