Passion:

 I am not sure but pretty much my thoughts are pointed towards what I am doing with my life. I heard - now this is a very popular song on Christian radio so I am not saying I just heard the song... I am saying I "heard" the song today! Actually I "heard" the song in a different way.

THE MOTIONS by Matthew West

This might hurt, it's not safe

But I know that I've gotta make a change

I don't care if I break,

At least I'll be feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time

I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind

Let Your love make me whole

I think I'm finally feeling something

'Cause just okay is not enough

Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)

take me all the way ('cause I don't wanna go through the motions)

take me all the way (I know I'm finally feeling something real)

take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

I don't wanna go through the motions

I don't wanna go one more day

without Your all consuming passion inside of me

I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,

"What if I had given everything,

instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)

take me all the way (I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go)

take me all the way (through the motions)

take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

I want to move this away from the christian walk (NOT that I mean it that way but just taking the song from a different perspective)  I want to say that he is talking about parenting. 

 I don't want to get to the end of the road parenting and wished I had given everything instead of going through the motions.

I want HIS passion for raising my kids.  I know He blessed me with them.  I know HE in trusted them to my care.  I know He gives me the strength and courage and wisdom to be an awesome parent. 

The problem is I don't always treat them like the blessing they are.  I don't always feel up to the task that He has in trusted. I DO NOT always rely on His strength or courage or wisdom in being a parent.

I do not always feel passionate about my job.  I WANT TO HAVE AN ALL CONSUMING PASSION for parenting my children!  God has blessed us to be able to home school and I feel like I am letting that CHANCE slip right past me.

I don't want that. 

PLEASE GOD, Take me all the way.  Please God fill me with an enduring passion to raise these children in a way that is pleasing to YOU.